Make it Happen Monday: Who I Be

Who I Be…..A Personal Confession

How well do you know yourself?  I recently decided to take part in a “Personal Confession” exercise to see how well I knew myself, and wanted to share my results in today’s Make it Happen Monday post.  You may know me as a guy who loves bicycles, and if you’ve seen my Twitter bio you would know a little bit more (as in the screen shot below)…but there is so much more I’d like to share to those of you who are interested.

I am Darryl Kotyk, aka @lovingthebike.  I am the very proud Son of two awesome Parents.  I’m doing my best as a Husband, Dad, Brother, Uncle, Advocate.  Trying to be a good friend to many.  I am an open book and in need of laying things down on paper to see it all more clearly.

I am not the person I wish to be every day.  I often think how differently it all should be with me, with others, with the world. I feel pride….but it is often overshadowed with thoughts of “it should be better, different….somehow”.  I am slightly scared of the future.  Very scared of being old, alone, sick, hollow.

For some reason I do not see myself as others see me.  I feel shyer than I appear.  Not as confident as I exude. More easily perturbed than you’d think.

I am friendly.  I am happy.  I forgive.  I generally do not forget too much.  I don’t listen very well sometimes.  I am supportive.  I can motivate.  I want to be able to inspire people.  I want to make the world a happy place.  I don’t like to see people argue or fight.  I wish that everyone on Earth could be silly, goofy, happy….at all times.

I like so many things, but have difficulty listing them down.  The same thing goes for the stuff I don’t like.  I do know that I have true and genuine Love for my Family, although it may not always come out the way I want it to come out.   I love the Sun.  I love doing new things.  I love happy times.  I often get so overwhelmed with life that it sets me off into some sort of blurry depression.  I envy those happy go lucky people who are consistently upbeat and just seem to love life every day.  But then again, I am happy go lucky.  I say some strange things.  I think even stranger things.  I do not agree with most of the stuff I see in the world.  I believe we, as One World, should see ourselves as equals and give up on this “Power Trip” mentality that we instill in ourselves.  I am proud of my ability to bring excellent people into my life.  I wish to obtain a natural desire to treat those closest to me with the highest respect, give lots of good help, and provide all the support they need.  I am not afraid to say too many things, but my thoughts often flow much better on paper then they do out of my mouth.

I am very lucky.  I’ve been told I always land on my feet.  I have traveled a good part of the world, and am definitely not done with this.  I have pretty much done every exhilarating or insane thing I’ve ever wanted to do.  I’ve owned a brand new home.  I have owned some beautiful bicycles.  I have obtained some very cool stuff.

I could most definitely go on with this personal confession, and I probably will in a letter to myself.  I’d like to advise you all that, what I have just done is something we all should do.  We often get caught up in this fast-paced, technological World and might lose track of what lies within us.  Our soul.  Our core.

Do this exercise yourself and you just might get to know you a little better.

Who You Be?

  • http://twitter.com/BicycleLab Victor Jimenez

    Darryl
    You are awesome and I am proud to have you as a close friend. It takes guts to put a deep post like this up. Kudos to you. While those swings in mood are difficult to handle they are vital to our being. With no down there can be no up. Yin/Yang.

    The stuff/ house, technology are the things that we think we want….but what we really want is love. and That you already have…

    Victor
    Thought you might like this poster. Read the quote

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      Thanks Victor, this means a lot coming from you.  I really appreciate your comments and love the Hendrix poster.  Thank you, my friend.

  • Anonymous

    I absolutely love this post.   I love that you know who you are, and that you can share it with the world.  
    I’m proud of you for writing and sharing this.  I think I might just do the same (but maybe not share it).  

  • http://twitter.com/PedalmanTO PedalmanTO

    Brother, I love this excercise!!!!!! So few people are willing to look in the mirror and express how they truly feel. You can grow so much in the direction of your dreams by starting with an honest conversation with yourself.

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      You are one of the people in my life who help me continue to be a better person every day.  You’re a fantastic role model, my friend.

  • http://twonormalmoms.blogspot.com/ Ally

    I read here often, comment infrequently. But I loved this post. I can relate to many of the things you list here. I think this is an exercise I should spend some time with, myself.

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      Thanks Ally, it makes me feel good knowing that you could relate to what I wrote and are inspired to do your own personal letter.  Let me know how it goes.

      • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

        Oh….and don’t be shy.  Please continue to share your comments whenever you’d like.  They are very much appreciated.

  • Pamela

    We spend so much time intertwinned with the lives of others that we often forget to go deep within ourselves.  We live in a busy world with so much going on and taking the time to quiet ourselves and get in tune with who we really are is vitally important.  I am impressed that you took the time to go through this process and I am sure you have been rewarded with great insight on life.  We all should do this sort of thing on a regular basis.  This is a very nice look into your mind and soul.

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      Thanks, Pamela.  I feel like I’ve gotten know myself better and better over the past five or ten years.  Maybe it’s because of doing things like this.  I did this exercise around 8 or 10 years ago and I think that’s the last time….but I agree that it should be done on a regular basis.

  • George

    You have guts to put this all out in a public post.  I enjoyed reading this and finding out more about how you tick.  It seems like a good exercise and I just might try it for myself.

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      I’ve always been a fairly “un-public” person, but I also have no problem letting people into my thoughts and feelings. I don’t have anything to hide, so it’s basically what you see is what you get….at least most of the time.

  • http://www.reasons2ride.com/ Joel Phillips

    To quote the movie, “Avitar”, “I see you”.  Even though we come from two entirely different worlds, our souls are the same.  What I see is balance my friend….An unyielding desire to be what you’ve determined successful, equally countered with your fears of failing.  It’s natural, the more passionate you are, the grater your fears.  You want to make the world a better place…brother that is one scary proposition, and you’re doing it.

    This post perfectly illustrates the importance of putting yourself under a microscope and recording what you find.  For many years I was lost and it’s because I never really knew where I was.  I hope everyone that reads this accepts it as a challenge, if they are not already working on something like this.  Great job, motivating the mind is so important…

    I’d like to share my favorite quote, one that resonated with me after I learned who I be….
         
    Look not mournfully into the past, it comes not
    back again. Wisely improve the present, it is thine. Go forth to meet the
    shadowy future without fear and with a manly heart.
 ~~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      Fantastic quote, Joel and it fits very nicely with today’s Make it Happen post.  In today’s world it’s sometimes difficult to take the time to sit down and put thoughts like this on paper, but I do hope others will join me in this exercise.

  • Anonymous

    I love this Darryl! It is a good way to release and gain perspective in ones life. It is something that I need to do more often. When I was recently away for the holidays, I did a bit of soul searching myself. One thing that I have to do is dissconnect from everything for the two weeks that I’m in Costa Rica. No electronics, telephone, etc.. just be with my thoughts, and time. My letter to myself would read a little different than yours, but the cleansing effect, and mental clarity following are (probably) the same. I wish you the best my friend. Truly a gift just knowing you.
    Rik Aguilera

    • http://lovingthebike.com Darryl is Loving the Bike

      Yeah, laying on a surfboard in Costa Rica would be a great place to get to know yourself better.  Thanks for your comment, Rik.