The Enthusiastically Depressed Cyclist
A couple weeks ago, I bared my soul and talked about feeling like a fake. It was all about how I’ve felt bummed out and a bit of a downer lately. I received some great comments and words of encouragement, and I appreciate all you had to say.
But there was more to the story, and something I didn’t include in that other article. If you know me, or have followed things over here at Loving the Bike you’d have a hard time believing that I suffer on and off with depression. Yeah, been this way for at least the past 15 years. Most of the time it’s not a big deal…but it always seems to be lingering. For the past couple months it’s reared its ugly head and has been pretty full on.
If you know anything about depression, you’ll know it’s not at all like being sad or down. It’s a disease, and not something you can just tell yourself to get over. It’s like if you had the chicken pox and someone told you to just put a smile on your face and it would go away.
So how can a guy who generally comes across as being enthusiastic and full of life be this way? Not sure really…..but I’d much rather be that happy go lucky dude than who I’ve been lately.
Luckily, I’m not a severe case….but it’s enough to be causing some issues in my life. If it were just simply being a little sad, my bike rides would definitely help snap me out of it. But because it’s a disease, they unfortunately haven’t been able to knock me back to happy.
Okay, with this little piece of personal information being put out there….I’d like you all to know that I’m still going to do all I can to promote positivity in our Make it Happen Monday posts, and will bring out as much of my wacky personality as I can in all other posts.
If you or someone you know suffers from this type of mental illness, be sure to get help or give them help. I’d like to personally thank my friend Ann for her help and support as I make my way through this….and to my Family for dealing with me during this time.