Who I Be…..A Personal Confession

How well do you know yourself?  I recently decided to take part in a “Personal Confession” exercise to see how well I knew myself, and wanted to share my results in today’s Make it Happen Monday post.  You may know me as a guy who loves bicycles, and if you’ve seen my Twitter bio you would know a little bit more (as in the screen shot below)…but there is so much more I’d like to share to those of you who are interested.

I am Darryl Kotyk, aka @lovingthebike.  I am the very proud Son of two awesome Parents.  I’m doing my best as a Husband, Dad, Brother, Uncle, Advocate.  Trying to be a good friend to many.  I am an open book and in need of laying things down on paper to see it all more clearly.

I am not the person I wish to be every day.  I often think how differently it all should be with me, with others, with the world. I feel pride….but it is often overshadowed with thoughts of “it should be better, different….somehow”.  I am slightly scared of the future.  Very scared of being old, alone, sick, hollow.

For some reason I do not see myself as others see me.  I feel shyer than I appear.  Not as confident as I exude. More easily perturbed than you’d think.

I am friendly.  I am happy.  I forgive.  I generally do not forget too much.  I don’t listen very well sometimes.  I am supportive.  I can motivate.  I want to be able to inspire people.  I want to make the world a happy place.  I don’t like to see people argue or fight.  I wish that everyone on Earth could be silly, goofy, happy….at all times.

I like so many things, but have difficulty listing them down.  The same thing goes for the stuff I don’t like.  I do know that I have true and genuine Love for my Family, although it may not always come out the way I want it to come out.   I love the Sun.  I love doing new things.  I love happy times.  I often get so overwhelmed with life that it sets me off into some sort of blurry depression.  I envy those happy go lucky people who are consistently upbeat and just seem to love life every day.  But then again, I am happy go lucky.  I say some strange things.  I think even stranger things.  I do not agree with most of the stuff I see in the world.  I believe we, as One World, should see ourselves as equals and give up on this “Power Trip” mentality that we instill in ourselves.  I am proud of my ability to bring excellent people into my life.  I wish to obtain a natural desire to treat those closest to me with the highest respect, give lots of good help, and provide all the support they need.  I am not afraid to say too many things, but my thoughts often flow much better on paper then they do out of my mouth.

I am very lucky.  I’ve been told I always land on my feet.  I have traveled a good part of the world, and am definitely not done with this.  I have pretty much done every exhilarating or insane thing I’ve ever wanted to do.  I’ve owned a brand new home.  I have owned some beautiful bicycles.  I have obtained some very cool stuff.

I could most definitely go on with this personal confession, and I probably will in a letter to myself.  I’d like to advise you all that, what I have just done is something we all should do.  We often get caught up in this fast-paced, technological World and might lose track of what lies within us.  Our soul.  Our core.

Do this exercise yourself and you just might get to know you a little better.

Who You Be?